it would be nice to see you put more effort into the places you've applied to. i have seen you come up with a lot of excuses for why you aren't putting in the effort but if you're going to apply you might as well play. and if you intend to idle out, just drop so someone else can come along. it's nothing personal but i have seen you spread yourself thin and not be able to focus over and over.

it might be better for you to slim down your roster to games you actually enjoy playing at to get meaningful cr instead of put yourself in a cycle of applying places and doing the bare minimum to get by/idling out with the same song and dance.